私の世界

Yay or Nay?

noreply@blogger.com (Boon Woei) — Mon, 07 Dec 2009 03:37:00 +0000

Yay cause most big things are done and over!!

Nay cause still got one big thing left: final exams!!

Just finished my thesis defence today, which explains why I am here cause I'm done liao. I was told that my written paper was superficial, that everything lack depth and that everything was "Touch 'n Go"; I agreed and I actually knew it all along. Haiz never mind about the superficial crap shit work -_-

I'm just happy that I'm happy I guess?

ttly

来的时候一个人，离开的时候也是一个人...

noreply@blogger.com (Boon Woei) — Tue, 27 Oct 2009 08:39:00 +0000

只能希望着，盼望着，欲望着，留着的时候不是一个人...

How's life? Life's good. Can be better, it always can. But, oh well..

It feels like I have so much to say, so much to express, so much to do.. yet no words come out, no one to express to and not doing anything of significance.

Sigh, never mind, perhaps a more in-depth (or at least lengthier) post will come when I get my CPU repaired. I miss my computer T_T

When we come into this world, we are alone;
When we leave this world, we are alone;
We can only hope that for as long as we are here, we are not alone.

p/s: and no, Michael Jackson will not be here.

Left Hand

noreply@blogger.com (Boon Woei) — Thu, 15 Oct 2009 10:57:00 +0000

Offering one's left hand to someone is a sign of trust for that person, as the left hand is the one that holds the shield (i.e. you trust that person enough to lower your guard). It is also a sign of love, for the left side is where the heart resides.

- Translator note in last episode of Tales of the Abyss

I never knew this until I watched the last episode of the anime.

Lol, laughing out loud. Roflmao, rolling on floor laughing my ass out.

End of random.

Semi-LD'ed

noreply@blogger.com (Boon Woei) — Wed, 14 Oct 2009 12:28:00 +0000

The title is just for lols.

Remember the Say Frog Baby in the previous post? Apparently she's learned how to say "frog", and still so adorable :)

Following is a video of a guy who tries to jump over exercise balls. This is the video which made me lost my mind for a good 15 minutes yesterday night; I couldn't stop laughing when I was trying to explain to my bro how funny the video was.
Every time I reached the description of the "...3rd exercise ball yadayadayada", I burst out in laughter with tears somemore and that happened for about 15 minutes -_-

note: it's actually not that funny, I guess I needed to laugh and express really badly (for whatever reasons -_-)

And the video below features "The Mom Song", interesting and the lady geng :P

Just saw this on a friend's blog, hilarious and cute :D

That's all hehe. Have a nice ~~weekend~~ day :)

Frogged

noreply@blogger.com (Boon Woei) — Fri, 09 Oct 2009 12:22:00 +0000

Hope I don't get frogged up by procrastination O_O

p/s: The baby damn cute hehe :)

Still...

noreply@blogger.com (Boon Woei) — Thu, 08 Oct 2009 00:49:00 +0000

Still not good enough...

Still can't be selfless, or at least less self-centered...

Still talk in lots of "I"s...

Still fail to be genuine...

Still fail to step up...

Still fail to be empathetic...

Still fail to be there...

Still fail to stay long enough...

Still not good enough.

Sakit, Tak Boleh

noreply@blogger.com (Boon Woei) — Mon, 28 Sep 2009 15:14:00 +0000

No one is allowed to fall sick for the next 3 months!

Just canNOT afford to fall sick. CanNOT sick. CANNOT sick.

Or maybe the only time to actually rest in peace is to fall sick. LOL. This is so not funny XD

You know, everything is manageable; but.. it's just.. it's just..
Uhh, I don't know lah -__-

Ugh, never mind.

Sakit, tak boleh.

So Fast...

noreply@blogger.com (Boon Woei) — Sun, 20 Sep 2009 15:58:00 +0000

I think by now it's apparent that I don't wanna grow up, with all the oh-time-flies-ish posts.

I don't wanna grow up. No one taught me how to.

I don't wanna be bearing responsibilities I didn't sign up for.
Then again, who wants?

I don't want things to change yet I want things to change.
Ever contradicting humans are.

I don't like creative assignments projects.
Another way to see them is.. they are very vague.

I don't care yet I care that I don't care and I care.
Ever contradicting humans are.

*lets out a big sigh*

090909

noreply@blogger.com (Boon Woei) — Wed, 09 Sep 2009 13:09:00 +0000

How can not blog and leave a mark today right? :P

As the title suggested, today's date is special and it doesn't come by often and probably will not come again for as long as I live. This date signifies long long long in Chinese, as the pronunciation of nine in Mandarin/Cantonese is identical to the pronunciation of long (in terms of duration).
Lots of couples are getting together today, may it be engagement or wedding as they believe that if they are joined today, they'll live happily every after forever :) Despite the fact that it is still the Ghost Month in the Chinese calendar, many just wouldn't wanna miss this chance to be one.

And I just wanna take the opportunity today to wish all my friends to find the one in their lives and may you be with your love forever and ever happily ever after :D Hehe. Remember to invite me when you get married, as you already have my blessings in advance on 090909 :D

If you try hard enough, you might just be able to make it in time for 101010; yesh, the perfect 10. 十全十美, everything will be perfect that day with the perfectly imperfect someone you're with and you will have more and more perfectly lovely days with that someone of yours in years to come :D

Then if you really cannot make it for 101010, try 111111 (did I get the 1's correct? lol). On that ONE day, you will be ONE with that ONE and only that ONE not any other ONE but that ONE happily ever after :D

Don't ask me about 121212, the date looks cute but somewhat weird and probably less meaningful (or I haven't figured out the significance) :P

Be happy, stay healthy.

p/s: I posted this at 9.09pm on 9th of September, 2009!
p/s2: Aiya!! I forgot to edit the time as I was rushing for 9.09pm and now it's 9.10pm liao. Just pretend that I made it on the last second of 9.09pm la!! :)

Suddenly... Again?!

noreply@blogger.com (Boon Woei) — Sun, 06 Sep 2009 13:12:00 +0000

My bro is back from the 3-month-NS-camp.
OMGWTFBBQ! 3 months you know? Just like that, poof, gone, and now he's back like he's never left!

Then, then... 1st week of Uni came, poof and gone! We're looking at 13 out of 14 weeks of the semester left; if you see it this way, we really are only seeing our lecturers 14 times (some 28 times due to the cacated schedule -_-). And every time you catch a glimpse of the lecturer, you pay RM100; which sums up nicely to RM1400 per subject. But of course, I am sure our subject fee is not calculated via this manner, as some are paying lesser >.>

Speaking of fees and RMs, the burden has increased even more; as now my bro is back and by right, should be preparing to embark on his tertiary education journey.. like soon.
Meanwhile my remaining semesters' fees are to be paid using mom's EPF as I drained dry dad's Akaun ll or something. I never knew we're so tight on dough T_T I mean, I've tried doing the calculations etc. and just couldn't figure out how we're using so much money and where does most of the money go?

I canceled a huge chunk of text cause if not it'll appear as though I'm an ungrateful child who complains endlessly about his quite fortunate life.. and that, is not nice. Not nice at all.

Hmm, maybe it's time to see a counselor since there's a subject this semester which gives free % for seeing a counselor and as a student myself, I get to see one for ~~free~~ a very small fee anyways :)

Suddenly...

noreply@blogger.com (Boon Woei) — Wed, 02 Sep 2009 01:27:00 +0000

Holiday ended. School ~~starting~~ started. T_T

Today woke up early, and I am still exhausted now. Super tiring -_-
Why tiring? I haven't been waking up so early in the morning during the holidays; in the holidays, I only tried to wake up by 11am to watch the (super old, like last 2 years') Martha Stewart Show on NTV7.

Not to mention that I am obsessed and addicted to gaming again (which screwed up my SPM back in those days, and me dropping Bahasa Cina to play Maple Story that time; sad right? I know O_O). There was a couple of nights (ok, maybe more than a couple) that I slept when the sun was rising; as the sun rising indicated that it's time my parents wake up for work, so yea, I better sleep before they think I am super lifeless.

Speaking of those days (~~young~~ younger days), I walked through the Valley of 18s just now, in the main campus of HELP UC. The main campus of HELP is like a dungeon deep inside a cave, there are more classrooms in the deepest part of the cave and there are also classrooms along the Valley of 18s.
What's Valley of 18s? The whole long stretch of road in between two mountains (classrooms) of 18-year-olds. Like so many kids there lol :D I feel a bit old and rusty; like how I could not stay up gaming for too many nights, it'll kill me -_-

Aside from not-young and rustiness, I also realized that I am in my last two semesters of tertiary education (no, I do not have ambitious plans to further my education) and I am pretty clueless about what I've done and been doing in the past few years.
I am not smart and not stupid. I am at most average, and probably at best slightly above average.. and average tends to be forgotten, lol. Not to mention that I am not exactly "passionate" about research too, and research is like a super important part of Psychology (no, we do not read minds, like seriously).
Plus, that's not all! Instead of being pretty clueless (at least still pretty :P), I am very clueless about what I'll be doing in the future, like half a year down the road from now. Very the clueless.

You see, during my holidays, I don't do much besides drink, toilet, TV, eat, computer and sleep; and I'm inclined to think that this will be my way of living after Uni if I don't get a ~~decent~~ job. It's super pathetic I'm telling you, I did not leave the house for like a week, the furthest distance I moved was from my room to the kitchen/toilet (5m~10m?), and there was virtually no human contact (as I don't communicate much with my parents).
So I certainly do not want a life~~less~~ like that. Eh wait, I might actually like and get used to it; after all, I am doing nothing!

But then again, if a job does come along, wouldn't it just be another 9am to 6pm job (if I'm lucky)?
And that, my friend, is pretty lifeless too.
And of course, there's this talk about doing what you like/enjoy for a living; well, if you get to do that, great for you! But out of the gazillion living things out there, how many actually get to be that fortunate? A handful? You get to see all those successful stories etc. (which usually come with some failures in the past yada yada yada) everywhere, what about those who failed, like totally? Presevere until they succeed and finally be a success story themselves?

Then what?

Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. I think I lost the initial objective of writing this post and kinda don't know what this is all about already, lol. Eh wait, there might not be any intialy purpose, it's the usual random randomness :D
Sorry if this is like a bit long, I guess I'm just a bit bored in the Uni in the morning.

Negaraku

noreply@blogger.com (Boon Woei) — Fri, 28 Aug 2009 14:33:00 +0000

Saw this some where and thought of sharing it. Cute video :)

It's not the end

noreply@blogger.com (Boon Woei) — Tue, 11 Aug 2009 13:09:00 +0000

Screwing my work does not equate the end of the world, the Earth is still spinning/rotating and life still goes on. Though it was terrible and I felt superbly disappointed with myself (not the usual disappointment, read: this is superbly). This time around, I seriously hope that next time around will be better; but there's only so much of hoping I can do, the doing is what matters -__-

That aside, was really very very really glad to have gone out with some kawans lately. Don't know if I've mentioned this explicitly, but anyhow: the most bestest best thing ever happened to me in tertiary education was/is being able to meet a bunch of most superbly superb humans. Yea, you :)

Though I don't always show it (or maybe I've never shown it), but I am really thankful for the bunch of humans I met; yea, you again :)

I wanted to continue on with more meaningful things like growth and etc. but well, it doesn't feel like it's the right time yet. So I'll probably blog about that some other time :) For now, I'll finish this post by sharing with you two awesome affordable ice-creams and one awesome show for the Psychs:

Two awesome affordable ice-creams
1. Wall's Mango Tango - RM1.50 - any petrol station, supermarkets..
2. Wall's Berry Twist - RM1.50 - any petrol station, supermarkets..
I had the mango one yesterday, it was awesome; had the (straw)berry one today, it was awesome. Between the two, the mango one is awesomer :D

One awesome show for the Psychs
1. Lie to Me - Monday - 8.30~9.30pm - NTV7
An interesting watch though it might be kinda old, but who cares :) Has relevant info about topics like lie detection, study of body language (kinesics, had to go Google for the exact term cause I forgot lol screw me XD); you should watch too even if you're a non-Psych, it's after all pretty interesting :D

That's all.

不知所措

noreply@blogger.com (Boon Woei) — Tue, 04 Aug 2009 07:19:00 +0000

我每天都在过着这样的生活, 你说死不死?

I don't wanna sleep..

noreply@blogger.com (Boon Woei) — Tue, 28 Jul 2009 16:00:00 +0000

It's been a week since my last post, yet my thesis' progress is still.. eh wait, there isn't even a progress. So yea, NO progress for the big project -__-

No, I am not trying to break my own record for last minute assignmenting.. Doing a huge project like thesis research proposal (well, technically it's half a thesis considering there are 1 and 2) is suicidal. In the past few weeks (maybe even months), I kept repeating to myself that I'll start soon, maybe tomorrow.. And tomorrow comes and goes, and there are more tomorrows. I now officially have less than 10 tomorrows for The Thesis 1.

I think I'm taking my major very lightly and in that, I think I'm taking my future very lightly.

And oh, the title is there just because I literally don't wanna sleep. I always wished to have the full 24 hours in a day, as in awake.. without having a need to sleep. Though I don't actually do much nowadays; nonetheless the thought came up back in the days when I was still a religious gamer. Grinding 24 hours was ~~awesome~~ lifeless.
Meh, that aside; now the thought of having 24 hours is purely for me to do nothing, yesh, 24 hours of absolute nothingness.

Eh, I just got an idea, I should start a business in which people actually pay me for doing nothing. Cool eh? Like a Stoning Club or something (totally irrelevant to stones, rocks, pebbles and what-have-you), it's a club where the members stone.. like stare blank.. like do nothing.. stoning~
I can already imagine how my store looks like; it's a store where people come in and pay money and just do nothing..

Ah never mind, I got carried away by my own ridiculousness -__-
I guess I do need to sleep after all, good night!

Still Genie XD

noreply@blogger.com (Boon Woei) — Tue, 21 Jul 2009 16:32:00 +0000

Haiz, how I wish I have a genie who goes: "Sowoneul Malhaebwa~" aka "Tell Me Your Wish~" :D :D :D

Cause you see, ~~I wish for world peace~~ I have sooo many things I want and wish for; just to name a few, like gaining supernatural powers, getting daily allowance of 2k and etc. (etc. includes like another thousand items or so heh :P)
You get the drill la, you know those impossible things; eh wait, nothing is impossible, make that super highly unlikely to happen things instead of impossible!

Genie ah, Genie ah, Where are thou?

Empty

noreply@blogger.com (Boon Woei) — Tue, 21 Jul 2009 01:11:00 +0000

As per title, life has been rather empty. No internship but still got Plants vs Zombies, I am amazed by the amount of time I spent on the game -__-

Like my fellow course mates, I actually have a thesis research proposal to be completed by early August; but as usual, I am doing nothing.. yet. Haiz, I am ~~a bit~~ quite embarrassed to meet my supervisor now; she's very nice and helpful.. She deserves a more hardworking and initiative supervisee -__-

Life is rather meaningless, or maybe it's just an excuse for me to not do anything. I always thought it's cool to have those messages/letters which start with "When you see this, I am no longer in..." It's just cool la heh and no, I am not going to kill myself just because the statement of 'life feels meaningless' comes together with the when-you-see-this statement in a post titled "Empty". Hmm, maybe I should schedule a when-you-see-this message -__-

"When you see this, I am already..."

Heh~ LoL~

-__-

-__-

noreply@blogger.com (Boon Woei) — Wed, 15 Jul 2009 15:38:00 +0000

I didn't even last 2 days. This is not necessarily a bad thing though, and I need to stress that this is not a sad/emo post!

Note to self 1: Next time just don't bother lah! Just be myself: a lazy bum! Don't need to do anything to beautify my pathetic resume; it is too pathetic for any effective remedy already -__-

Note to self 2: Next time must refrain from shopping even during sales! Only wait for J-Card Member Day; it is the only day worth shopping albeit the crazy crowd! So yea -__-

Finally can rest in peace -__-

It's a Secret

noreply@blogger.com (Boon Woei) — Fri, 10 Jul 2009 14:32:00 +0000

Life's Good, go figure :P

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On the other hand, there is this and that to be done.
Haiz, like got a lot of things to do and also like got nothing to do.. or it's just me having plenty tasks to be completed and yet, not doing anyone of them!

I seriously don't know what I've been doing since my final finals paper, the only think I could think of now is spending time wasting time. Yesh, that's right! I spent my time wasting time, OMG x 3.

That aside, I think I am a very very fortunate person. I get to sing k, eat fast food, eat not-too-cheap desserts, watch TV, use/own a computer, go to Uni, meet awesome friends, experience awesome times with friends, have my 5 senses intact.. and the list goes on; my point is yea, fortunate a person I am.

That's about it, I actually thought of more things.. but can't seem to remember them. For now, this mundanely random and abruptly ended post will do; and hope I survive next week: thesis defense and 1st taste of working world (+ the cramming in KTM station in the morning and evening and maybe night, OMG x 3).

Fetchers

noreply@blogger.com (Boon Woei) — Wed, 08 Jul 2009 09:47:00 +0000

Thank you to those who have fetched me home before. I know to most, this might not be a problem at all, but it is the biggest concern I have when I go out with friends.
It is you (fetchers sekalian) that I was able to be present and not miss any precious moments with fellow friends. As cliche as it might sound, you know who you are lol (cause I've been fetched home so many times by so many of you that I lost track -__-).
Take the title as a tribute to you! Thanks for not abandoning me and viewing me as a burden :D

Like a friend said, sometimes it is really just that easy to be nice to people. No ulterior motives, no terms and conditions. And I personally also believe that it's easier to be nice than nasty (though I still have to agree that in certain situations, we are somehow conditioned to be not-nice XD); so yea, it's good to be nice to people ~~once in a while~~ as often as possible :P

Exams are over and there goes the 2nd semester of Year 3. Coming up are thesis presentation, THESIS, and internship. Haiz, humans complain when they have things to do, and they complain when there's nothing to do.. And I am not complaining yet, let's just say I am not amused.

Where now?

noreply@blogger.com (Boon Woei) — Wed, 01 Jul 2009 15:11:00 +0000

I just realized that people of my age are at no where, hence the title.

What I'm trying to say here is we are not too old.. and we are not too young. For instance, we are actually still young enough to be a superstar, supermodel and whatever supers we have that require one to start young and fresh. At the same time, we are actually already old enough to make our own babies and/or start our own family/business.

You know, it just sort of kept me thinking.. What am I now? Where am I now? What am I to be? What can I become?
And you know, we humans are capable of doing many great things. Many great things.

What would I be doing if I'm not doing Psychology? What to do after this? And then WHAT? IS LIFE JUST LIKE THAT? What more is there?
Does a person who travels all around the world experiences life more than a person who stays home and watches TV all day? Why are we living life?! Why is there even a WE in the first place?!

Aww man, I don't know why am I thinking all these at this time lol. I am not emo'ing, neither am I stressed out by the final exams and thesis.. I just have this thought of "so what" and "then what"; you know like, so what if I am on the moon now, then what? So what if I earn a 5-digit salary now, then what? You know la, the so what and then what attitude -__-

So what? Then what?

Kempasians

noreply@blogger.com (Boon Woei) — Mon, 29 Jun 2009 10:21:00 +0000

The reunion dinner with fellow ex-students of 5 Kempas was interestingly nice. It was really nice to see so many of them again; I would say most of them didn't change much appearance wise and apparently, most commented that I've changed a lot. And I am inclined to think that it's a good change :)

I just realized that why I always appear reserved and shutmyself, cause I am afraid that when people get too close, they might find that I am quite empty. Yea, empty.. -__- I am quite boring and uninteresting in general; this was apparent during the get-together when everyone was sharing and I found myself feeling quite kosong and got not much to share.. Not to mention that I had quite a negative mentality when looking back at my secondary school life. Haiz, scrap that!!!

And oh, never underestimate the power of peer pressure! Especially pressure from peers whom you have not met for a very long time XD Cause I surrendered to that pressure that day and did many silly things lol I should seriously learn to laugh at myself!!

*laughing at myself mode*
hahahahaha hahahaha hahahahaha hahahahaha hahahahahahaaaa
*end of laughing at myself mode*

OMG, after those laughters I still cannot get over the silly acts. Haiz, I just kinda felt that it's not common to get that bunch of people together.. a bit of silly acts won't kill me O_O
Looking back at it now, it feels like it does can kill me -__-

Come to think of it.. I think one day it'll be hard to get the Uni people together too!! T_T Fellow organizer masterminds, please do something when that day comes.. not everyone has the ability to bring everyone together ok. And the ones doing it so far have done great, so yea stay great... :D

Kesimpulannya, video of SNSD's Tell Me performance from years ago; orginal singer was Wonder Girls but I personally like SNSD's better:

p/s: that was totally random lol. Note to self: gotta stop watching these vids and start doing revision and thesis OMG OMG. And OMG.

Tell Me Your Wish

noreply@blogger.com (Boon Woei) — Sat, 27 Jun 2009 12:39:00 +0000

Hehe :)

p/s: I am t-e-r-r-i-b-l-e cause I see-money-eye-open!

p/s 2: I always like yum cha sessions with kawans!

noreply@blogger.com (Boon Woei) — Thu, 25 Jun 2009 03:22:00 +0000

Today, I got caught off-guard by the internship person. Haiz.. +_+
I actually set the alarm to wake up earlier as I was expecting them to call for the phone interview, but I couldn't wake up and got woken up by a call from the internship site interviewer!!

O_O

So yea, I was very unprepared..
When asked to describe myself, I described myself using only 2 traits in less than 10 words.. followed by a moment of silence from the interviewer and "Hah, that's all?"; I then proceeded to add on another 5 words or so.. and the response was "Ohhh, owhkay..."
I was wondering if it's actually better to not add the 5 words -_-
I now know that I am boring, uninteresting, shallow, ignorant, pretentious.. oh have I mentioned that I'm uninteresting? XD
Oh wait, next time I can just use this sentence when I am asked to describe myself! I lost count of the moments of silence and awkwardness during the phone interview T_T

The point is, I really got shocked when I was asked to describe myself.. cause my mind turned blank! I really don't know what kind of person am I~ It was that bad...
And and.. I don't think I can function effectively in the working world; I really don't know how to interact with people and communicate/express my thoughts.. OMG, let's just hope that it's not too late to discover these things XD

Either way, I got the internship opportunity. I am guessing it was due to the low application amount from our students; and they are pretty in need of humans I think..

Gam-ba-teh ne!!

noreply@blogger.com (Boon Woei) — Wed, 24 Jun 2009 00:57:00 +0000

I always appreciate every sing k session :) It's just really nice to get to sing k once in a while with fellow kawans.
And now that I have finally applied Neway's membership card, I can go alone during lunch hour (11 to 1) for RM5 with no extra charges! Muahahahaha!! *evil laughter seizes*

That aside, I just realized that I like to be surrounded by voices/sounds of friends, they make me feel safe :D It's like knowing there are people there.. Which is why even though sometimes not everyone can pay attention to everyone in a big group of friends, I still like to just be there.. listening to everyone's conversation silently or emo'ly.

random:
I was at this staring competition the other day and I got out-stared! I was waiting for my transport (my mom lol) and as usual, I was ~~staring~~ doing naturalistic observation on passerby; then usually people don't look back, even if they do.. they don't like STARE. So yea and that day I got stared at lol @_@
Conclusion is, next time don't stare at random passerby hehe. And I realized a thing, I actually did not have the confidence to stare back. I used to be able to just stare and stare though.. hmm, I wonder what happened? Haiz.
If given the chance again, will I stare back? Probably not, wanna kena whack meh?!
/end of random

random no.2 of the day:
Thank goodness for rajin workers! If not for the hardworking IT technical staff-person, I would be dead bored every morning... because the IT technical staff-person holds the key to the computer lab and the computer lab houses the computer and the computer is my source of entertainment in the morning before class. The designated opening time for the com lab is 9am and this IT person will usually reach at about 8.30am or so; so yea, bravo for rajin workers hehe.
/end of random no.2 of the day