Drenched

Nice song! Thanks for sharing it on FB, kawan :D

Not that I can relate to this song in anyway, just thought that it was beautifully sang. So sorta like just got inspired to write a bit here. I'm more like drenched in mundaness.

Not that I want my life to be filled with hoo-hahs and whatnot. Just feel a bit meh these days.

Speaking of mehness, actually not meh; come this end of May, I would have hit my first year of flying officially. Decisions, decisions. If I don't plan and don't think it through now, I might just get "stuck" in this job for longer than I imagined.

突然发现

原来我满享受一个人的生活.

I was in town watching a night movie yesterday, and somehow managed to catch the last bus back to east. As I was too distracted by Plants vs. Zombies on the phone, I somehow missed my stop by like 20 stops lol. In my attempt to catch the other last bus back to my stop, I ran across the grass field and the empty roads in the middle of the night.. though I missed that other last bus and ended up having to take a cab costing 7 dollars back home, all I can say is, I enjoyed the entire process thoroughly. The short jog in the night, night breeze, the feeling of rushing to hop on the last bus then missing it.. seeing how empty the streets were, with so few souls.

All this made me realized that, I'm actually doing quite fine on my own by myself. No commitment, no attachment. Guess this means there's always two sides to a coin, pros and cons in everything, the good and the bad. That is why, again, I believe in moderation, just a bit of the good would yield just a bit of the bad; and not extreme good then extreme bad, that is, too extreme.

This life journey..

So many things on my mind these days; then there were days my mind went blank, not knowing what to think and also not wanting to think about the inevitable: future.

Like what I mentioned in the previous post, it has been at least 1 full year.. Meaning to say, things have changed, people have grown. And I'm still unsure what to do with life, how I wish there's a step-by-step guide to "living life". But then again, it'll probably be the lamest guide ever. Oh lol, the contradiction.

I am a very simple person, I want very simple things in my life. I don't need extravagance, I don't need over the top, I don't need out of the norm. I'm not very ambitious and I certainly do not ask for a lot in life; as I strongly and always believe in moderation. Yet, why does life still appear to be so "just like that?" these days? So meh. Happiness, the ultimate goal in life?

誰來解救我？乏味的生活，該增添些色彩吧？我想，灰色也是色彩吧呵呵~

1 Year

Time doesn't stop for anyone. It has been 1 year since I started working in this foreign land; in hindsight, I think it's probably the biggest bravest decision I've ever made so far. Leaving behind everything I like and know, venture out to the so-called next phase of life on my own.

Really like penning down words, thoughts and whatnots here, it gives me a calming soothing feeling.. these words. Haven't been updating as frequent as I wished. Manage to squeeze in this post now cause I brought lappie to outstation for the very first time. Never bother to bring because it's always super troublesome to take it out for scanning before boarding the aircraft, this time's experience proved my point! Ma fan indeed!

Anyhow, New Year, CNY and Valentine's Day went by just like that.. I've also "worked" for about 1 year now.. "worked" because I don't really know what is going on now. I know I do not want to stay in this job for long, just don't know what's next? I've been complacent and care less since I cleared my probation, so to speak the boh-chapp attitude or tidak-apa attitude or couldn't-be-bothered attitude; really dislike the me who's not taking things seriously. Back in those schooling days, even though I procrastinated and always gave last minute work, I'd make sure I give my best till the very last minute. But now, I'm just going through the motion of "working" and living life.

GOODNESS!!

Chuah Boon Woei, take charge please. Be the boss.