Sakit, Tak Boleh

No one is allowed to fall sick for the next 3 months!

Just canNOT afford to fall sick. CanNOT sick. CANNOT sick.

Or maybe the only time to actually rest in peace is to fall sick. LOL. This is so not funny XD

You know, everything is manageable; but.. it's just.. it's just..
Uhh, I don't know lah -__-

Ugh, never mind.

Sakit, tak boleh.

So Fast...

I think by now it's apparent that I don't wanna grow up, with all the oh-time-flies-ish posts.

I don't wanna grow up. No one taught me how to.

I don't wanna be bearing responsibilities I didn't sign up for.
Then again, who wants?

I don't want things to change yet I want things to change.
Ever contradicting humans are.

I don't like creative assignments projects.
Another way to see them is.. they are very vague.

I don't care yet I care that I don't care and I care.
Ever contradicting humans are.

*lets out a big sigh*

090909

How can not blog and leave a mark today right? :P

As the title suggested, today's date is special and it doesn't come by often and probably will not come again for as long as I live. This date signifies long long long in Chinese, as the pronunciation of nine in Mandarin/Cantonese is identical to the pronunciation of long (in terms of duration).
Lots of couples are getting together today, may it be engagement or wedding as they believe that if they are joined today, they'll live happily every after forever :) Despite the fact that it is still the Ghost Month in the Chinese calendar, many just wouldn't wanna miss this chance to be one.

And I just wanna take the opportunity today to wish all my friends to find the one in their lives and may you be with your love forever and ever happily ever after :D Hehe. Remember to invite me when you get married, as you already have my blessings in advance on 090909 :D

If you try hard enough, you might just be able to make it in time for 101010; yesh, the perfect 10. 十全十美, everything will be perfect that day with the perfectly imperfect someone you're with and you will have more and more perfectly lovely days with that someone of yours in years to come :D

Then if you really cannot make it for 101010, try 111111 (did I get the 1's correct? lol). On that ONE day, you will be ONE with that ONE and only that ONE not any other ONE but that ONE happily ever after :D

Don't ask me about 121212, the date looks cute but somewhat weird and probably less meaningful (or I haven't figured out the significance) :P

Be happy, stay healthy.

p/s: I posted this at 9.09pm on 9th of September, 2009!
p/s2: Aiya!! I forgot to edit the time as I was rushing for 9.09pm and now it's 9.10pm liao. Just pretend that I made it on the last second of 9.09pm la!! :)

Suddenly... Again?!

My bro is back from the 3-month-NS-camp.
OMGWTFBBQ! 3 months you know? Just like that, poof, gone, and now he's back like he's never left!

Then, then... 1st week of Uni came, poof and gone! We're looking at 13 out of 14 weeks of the semester left; if you see it this way, we really are only seeing our lecturers 14 times (some 28 times due to the cacated schedule -_-). And every time you catch a glimpse of the lecturer, you pay RM100; which sums up nicely to RM1400 per subject. But of course, I am sure our subject fee is not calculated via this manner, as some are paying lesser >.>

Speaking of fees and RMs, the burden has increased even more; as now my bro is back and by right, should be preparing to embark on his tertiary education journey.. like soon.
Meanwhile my remaining semesters' fees are to be paid using mom's EPF as I drained dry dad's Akaun ll or something. I never knew we're so tight on dough T_T I mean, I've tried doing the calculations etc. and just couldn't figure out how we're using so much money and where does most of the money go?

I canceled a huge chunk of text cause if not it'll appear as though I'm an ungrateful child who complains endlessly about his quite fortunate life.. and that, is not nice. Not nice at all.

Hmm, maybe it's time to see a counselor since there's a subject this semester which gives free % for seeing a counselor and as a student myself, I get to see one for free a very small fee anyways :)

Suddenly...

Holiday ended. School starting started. T_T

Today woke up early, and I am still exhausted now. Super tiring -_-
Why tiring? I haven't been waking up so early in the morning during the holidays; in the holidays, I only tried to wake up by 11am to watch the (super old, like last 2 years') Martha Stewart Show on NTV7.

Not to mention that I am obsessed and addicted to gaming again (which screwed up my SPM back in those days, and me dropping Bahasa Cina to play Maple Story that time; sad right? I know O_O). There was a couple of nights (ok, maybe more than a couple) that I slept when the sun was rising; as the sun rising indicated that it's time my parents wake up for work, so yea, I better sleep before they think I am super lifeless.

Speaking of those days (young younger days), I walked through the Valley of 18s just now, in the main campus of HELP UC. The main campus of HELP is like a dungeon deep inside a cave, there are more classrooms in the deepest part of the cave and there are also classrooms along the Valley of 18s.
What's Valley of 18s? The whole long stretch of road in between two mountains (classrooms) of 18-year-olds. Like so many kids there lol :D I feel a bit old and rusty; like how I could not stay up gaming for too many nights, it'll kill me -_-

Aside from not-young and rustiness, I also realized that I am in my last two semesters of tertiary education (no, I do not have ambitious plans to further my education) and I am pretty clueless about what I've done and been doing in the past few years.
I am not smart and not stupid. I am at most average, and probably at best slightly above average.. and average tends to be forgotten, lol. Not to mention that I am not exactly "passionate" about research too, and research is like a super important part of Psychology (no, we do not read minds, like seriously).
Plus, that's not all! Instead of being pretty clueless (at least still pretty :P), I am very clueless about what I'll be doing in the future, like half a year down the road from now. Very the clueless.

You see, during my holidays, I don't do much besides drink, toilet, TV, eat, computer and sleep; and I'm inclined to think that this will be my way of living after Uni if I don't get a decent job. It's super pathetic I'm telling you, I did not leave the house for like a week, the furthest distance I moved was from my room to the kitchen/toilet (5m~10m?), and there was virtually no human contact (as I don't communicate much with my parents).
So I certainly do not want a lifeless like that. Eh wait, I might actually like and get used to it; after all, I am doing nothing!

But then again, if a job does come along, wouldn't it just be another 9am to 6pm job (if I'm lucky)?
And that, my friend, is pretty lifeless too.
And of course, there's this talk about doing what you like/enjoy for a living; well, if you get to do that, great for you! But out of the gazillion living things out there, how many actually get to be that fortunate? A handful? You get to see all those successful stories etc. (which usually come with some failures in the past yada yada yada) everywhere, what about those who failed, like totally? Presevere until they succeed and finally be a success story themselves?

Then what?

Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. I think I lost the initial objective of writing this post and kinda don't know what this is all about already, lol. Eh wait, there might not be any intialy purpose, it's the usual random randomness :D
Sorry if this is like a bit long, I guess I'm just a bit bored in the Uni in the morning.