I don't wanna sleep..

It's been a week since my last post, yet my thesis' progress is still.. eh wait, there isn't even a progress. So yea, NO progress for the big project -__-

No, I am not trying to break my own record for last minute assignmenting.. Doing a huge project like thesis research proposal (well, technically it's half a thesis considering there are 1 and 2) is suicidal. In the past few weeks (maybe even months), I kept repeating to myself that I'll start soon, maybe tomorrow.. And tomorrow comes and goes, and there are more tomorrows. I now officially have less than 10 tomorrows for The Thesis 1.

I think I'm taking my major very lightly and in that, I think I'm taking my future very lightly.

And oh, the title is there just because I literally don't wanna sleep. I always wished to have the full 24 hours in a day, as in awake.. without having a need to sleep. Though I don't actually do much nowadays; nonetheless the thought came up back in the days when I was still a religious gamer. Grinding 24 hours was awesome lifeless.
Meh, that aside; now the thought of having 24 hours is purely for me to do nothing, yesh, 24 hours of absolute nothingness.

Eh, I just got an idea, I should start a business in which people actually pay me for doing nothing. Cool eh? Like a Stoning Club or something (totally irrelevant to stones, rocks, pebbles and what-have-you), it's a club where the members stone.. like stare blank.. like do nothing.. stoning~
I can already imagine how my store looks like; it's a store where people come in and pay money and just do nothing..

Ah never mind, I got carried away by my own ridiculousness -__-
I guess I do need to sleep after all, good night!

Still Genie XD

Haiz, how I wish I have a genie who goes: "Sowoneul Malhaebwa~" aka "Tell Me Your Wish~" :D :D :D

Cause you see, I wish for world peace I have sooo many things I want and wish for; just to name a few, like gaining supernatural powers, getting daily allowance of 2k and etc. (etc. includes like another thousand items or so heh :P)
You get the drill la, you know those impossible things; eh wait, nothing is impossible, make that super highly unlikely to happen things instead of impossible!

Genie ah, Genie ah, Where are thou?

Empty

As per title, life has been rather empty. No internship but still got Plants vs Zombies, I am amazed by the amount of time I spent on the game -__-

Like my fellow course mates, I actually have a thesis research proposal to be completed by early August; but as usual, I am doing nothing.. yet. Haiz, I am a bit quite embarrassed to meet my supervisor now; she's very nice and helpful.. She deserves a more hardworking and initiative supervisee -__-

Life is rather meaningless, or maybe it's just an excuse for me to not do anything. I always thought it's cool to have those messages/letters which start with "When you see this, I am no longer in..." It's just cool la heh and no, I am not going to kill myself just because the statement of 'life feels meaningless' comes together with the when-you-see-this statement in a post titled "Empty". Hmm, maybe I should schedule a when-you-see-this message -__-

"When you see this, I am already..."

Heh~ LoL~

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I didn't even last 2 days. This is not necessarily a bad thing though, and I need to stress that this is not a sad/emo post!

Note to self 1: Next time just don't bother lah! Just be myself: a lazy bum! Don't need to do anything to beautify my pathetic resume; it is too pathetic for any effective remedy already -__-

Note to self 2: Next time must refrain from shopping even during sales! Only wait for J-Card Member Day; it is the only day worth shopping albeit the crazy crowd! So yea -__-

Finally can rest in peace -__-

It's a Secret

Life's Good, go figure :P

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On the other hand, there is this and that to be done.
Haiz, like got a lot of things to do and also like got nothing to do.. or it's just me having plenty tasks to be completed and yet, not doing anyone of them!

I seriously don't know what I've been doing since my final finals paper, the only think I could think of now is spending time wasting time. Yesh, that's right! I spent my time wasting time, OMG x 3.

That aside, I think I am a very very fortunate person. I get to sing k, eat fast food, eat not-too-cheap desserts, watch TV, use/own a computer, go to Uni, meet awesome friends, experience awesome times with friends, have my 5 senses intact.. and the list goes on; my point is yea, fortunate a person I am.

That's about it, I actually thought of more things.. but can't seem to remember them. For now, this mundanely random and abruptly ended post will do; and hope I survive next week: thesis defense and 1st taste of working world (+ the cramming in KTM station in the morning and evening and maybe night, OMG x 3).

Fetchers

Thank you to those who have fetched me home before. I know to most, this might not be a problem at all, but it is the biggest concern I have when I go out with friends.
It is you (fetchers sekalian) that I was able to be present and not miss any precious moments with fellow friends. As cliche as it might sound, you know who you are lol (cause I've been fetched home so many times by so many of you that I lost track -__-).
Take the title as a tribute to you! Thanks for not abandoning me and viewing me as a burden :D

Like a friend said, sometimes it is really just that easy to be nice to people. No ulterior motives, no terms and conditions. And I personally also believe that it's easier to be nice than nasty (though I still have to agree that in certain situations, we are somehow conditioned to be not-nice XD); so yea, it's good to be nice to people once in a while as often as possible :P

Exams are over and there goes the 2nd semester of Year 3. Coming up are thesis presentation, THESIS, and internship. Haiz, humans complain when they have things to do, and they complain when there's nothing to do.. And I am not complaining yet, let's just say I am not amused.

Where now?

I just realized that people of my age are at no where, hence the title.

What I'm trying to say here is we are not too old.. and we are not too young. For instance, we are actually still young enough to be a superstar, supermodel and whatever supers we have that require one to start young and fresh. At the same time, we are actually already old enough to make our own babies and/or start our own family/business.

You know, it just sort of kept me thinking.. What am I now? Where am I now? What am I to be? What can I become?
And you know, we humans are capable of doing many great things. Many great things.

What would I be doing if I'm not doing Psychology? What to do after this? And then WHAT? IS LIFE JUST LIKE THAT? What more is there?
Does a person who travels all around the world experiences life more than a person who stays home and watches TV all day? Why are we living life?! Why is there even a WE in the first place?!

Aww man, I don't know why am I thinking all these at this time lol. I am not emo'ing, neither am I stressed out by the final exams and thesis.. I just have this thought of "so what" and "then what"; you know like, so what if I am on the moon now, then what? So what if I earn a 5-digit salary now, then what? You know la, the so what and then what attitude -__-

So what? Then what?