Yay or Nay?

Yay cause most big things are done and over!!

Nay cause still got one big thing left: final exams!!

Just finished my thesis defence today, which explains why I am here cause I'm done liao. I was told that my written paper was superficial, that everything lack depth and that everything was "Touch 'n Go"; I agreed and I actually knew it all along. Haiz never mind about the superficial crap shit work -_-

I'm just happy that I'm happy I guess?

ttyl

来的时候一个人，离开的时候也是一个人...

只能希望着，盼望着，欲望着，留着的时候不是一个人...

How's life? Life's good. Can be better, it always can. But, oh well..

It feels like I have so much to say, so much to express, so much to do.. yet no words come out, no one to express to and not doing anything of significance.

Sigh, never mind, perhaps a more in-depth (or at least lengthier) post will come when I get my CPU repaired. I miss my computer T_T

When we come into this world, we are alone;
When we leave this world, we are alone;
We can only hope that for as long as we are here, we are not alone.

p/s: and no, Michael Jackson will not be here.

Left Hand

Offering one's left hand to someone is a sign of trust for that person, as the left hand is the one that holds the shield (i.e. you trust that person enough to lower your guard). It is also a sign of love, for the left side is where the heart resides.

- Translator note in last episode of Tales of the Abyss

I never knew this until I watched the last episode of the anime.

Lol, laughing out loud. Roflmao, rolling on floor laughing my ass out.

End of random.

Semi-LD'ed

The title is just for lols.

Remember the Say Frog Baby in the previous post? Apparently she's learned how to say "frog", and still so adorable :)


Following is a video of a guy who tries to jump over exercise balls. This is the video which made me lost my mind for a good 15 minutes yesterday night; I couldn't stop laughing when I was trying to explain to my bro how funny the video was.
Every time I reached the description of the "...3rd exercise ball yadayadayada", I burst out in laughter with tears somemore and that happened for about 15 minutes -_-

note: it's actually not that funny, I guess I needed to laugh and express really badly (for whatever reasons -_-)

And the video below features "The Mom Song", interesting and the lady geng :P


Just saw this on a friend's blog, hilarious and cute :D


That's all hehe. Have a nice weekend day :)

Frogged

Hope I don't get frogged up by procrastination O_O

p/s: The baby damn cute hehe :)

Still...

Still not good enough...

Still can't be selfless, or at least less self-centered...

Still talk in lots of "I"s...

Still fail to be genuine...

Still fail to step up...

Still fail to be empathetic...

Still fail to be there...

Still fail to stay long enough...

Still not good enough.

Sakit, Tak Boleh

No one is allowed to fall sick for the next 3 months!

Just canNOT afford to fall sick. CanNOT sick. CANNOT sick.

Or maybe the only time to actually rest in peace is to fall sick. LOL. This is so not funny XD

You know, everything is manageable; but.. it's just.. it's just..
Uhh, I don't know lah -__-

Ugh, never mind.

Sakit, tak boleh.

So Fast...

I think by now it's apparent that I don't wanna grow up, with all the oh-time-flies-ish posts.

I don't wanna grow up. No one taught me how to.

I don't wanna be bearing responsibilities I didn't sign up for.
Then again, who wants?

I don't want things to change yet I want things to change.
Ever contradicting humans are.

I don't like creative assignments projects.
Another way to see them is.. they are very vague.

I don't care yet I care that I don't care and I care.
Ever contradicting humans are.

*lets out a big sigh*

090909

How can not blog and leave a mark today right? :P

As the title suggested, today's date is special and it doesn't come by often and probably will not come again for as long as I live. This date signifies long long long in Chinese, as the pronunciation of nine in Mandarin/Cantonese is identical to the pronunciation of long (in terms of duration).
Lots of couples are getting together today, may it be engagement or wedding as they believe that if they are joined today, they'll live happily every after forever :) Despite the fact that it is still the Ghost Month in the Chinese calendar, many just wouldn't wanna miss this chance to be one.

And I just wanna take the opportunity today to wish all my friends to find the one in their lives and may you be with your love forever and ever happily ever after :D Hehe. Remember to invite me when you get married, as you already have my blessings in advance on 090909 :D

If you try hard enough, you might just be able to make it in time for 101010; yesh, the perfect 10. 十全十美, everything will be perfect that day with the perfectly imperfect someone you're with and you will have more and more perfectly lovely days with that someone of yours in years to come :D

Then if you really cannot make it for 101010, try 111111 (did I get the 1's correct? lol). On that ONE day, you will be ONE with that ONE and only that ONE not any other ONE but that ONE happily ever after :D

Don't ask me about 121212, the date looks cute but somewhat weird and probably less meaningful (or I haven't figured out the significance) :P

Be happy, stay healthy.

p/s: I posted this at 9.09pm on 9th of September, 2009!
p/s2: Aiya!! I forgot to edit the time as I was rushing for 9.09pm and now it's 9.10pm liao. Just pretend that I made it on the last second of 9.09pm la!! :)

Suddenly... Again?!

My bro is back from the 3-month-NS-camp.
OMGWTFBBQ! 3 months you know? Just like that, poof, gone, and now he's back like he's never left!

Then, then... 1st week of Uni came, poof and gone! We're looking at 13 out of 14 weeks of the semester left; if you see it this way, we really are only seeing our lecturers 14 times (some 28 times due to the cacated schedule -_-). And every time you catch a glimpse of the lecturer, you pay RM100; which sums up nicely to RM1400 per subject. But of course, I am sure our subject fee is not calculated via this manner, as some are paying lesser >.>

Speaking of fees and RMs, the burden has increased even more; as now my bro is back and by right, should be preparing to embark on his tertiary education journey.. like soon.
Meanwhile my remaining semesters' fees are to be paid using mom's EPF as I drained dry dad's Akaun ll or something. I never knew we're so tight on dough T_T I mean, I've tried doing the calculations etc. and just couldn't figure out how we're using so much money and where does most of the money go?

I canceled a huge chunk of text cause if not it'll appear as though I'm an ungrateful child who complains endlessly about his quite fortunate life.. and that, is not nice. Not nice at all.

Hmm, maybe it's time to see a counselor since there's a subject this semester which gives free % for seeing a counselor and as a student myself, I get to see one for free a very small fee anyways :)

Suddenly...

Holiday ended. School starting started. T_T

Today woke up early, and I am still exhausted now. Super tiring -_-
Why tiring? I haven't been waking up so early in the morning during the holidays; in the holidays, I only tried to wake up by 11am to watch the (super old, like last 2 years') Martha Stewart Show on NTV7.

Not to mention that I am obsessed and addicted to gaming again (which screwed up my SPM back in those days, and me dropping Bahasa Cina to play Maple Story that time; sad right? I know O_O). There was a couple of nights (ok, maybe more than a couple) that I slept when the sun was rising; as the sun rising indicated that it's time my parents wake up for work, so yea, I better sleep before they think I am super lifeless.

Speaking of those days (young younger days), I walked through the Valley of 18s just now, in the main campus of HELP UC. The main campus of HELP is like a dungeon deep inside a cave, there are more classrooms in the deepest part of the cave and there are also classrooms along the Valley of 18s.
What's Valley of 18s? The whole long stretch of road in between two mountains (classrooms) of 18-year-olds. Like so many kids there lol :D I feel a bit old and rusty; like how I could not stay up gaming for too many nights, it'll kill me -_-

Aside from not-young and rustiness, I also realized that I am in my last two semesters of tertiary education (no, I do not have ambitious plans to further my education) and I am pretty clueless about what I've done and been doing in the past few years.
I am not smart and not stupid. I am at most average, and probably at best slightly above average.. and average tends to be forgotten, lol. Not to mention that I am not exactly "passionate" about research too, and research is like a super important part of Psychology (no, we do not read minds, like seriously).
Plus, that's not all! Instead of being pretty clueless (at least still pretty :P), I am very clueless about what I'll be doing in the future, like half a year down the road from now. Very the clueless.

You see, during my holidays, I don't do much besides drink, toilet, TV, eat, computer and sleep; and I'm inclined to think that this will be my way of living after Uni if I don't get a decent job. It's super pathetic I'm telling you, I did not leave the house for like a week, the furthest distance I moved was from my room to the kitchen/toilet (5m~10m?), and there was virtually no human contact (as I don't communicate much with my parents).
So I certainly do not want a lifeless like that. Eh wait, I might actually like and get used to it; after all, I am doing nothing!

But then again, if a job does come along, wouldn't it just be another 9am to 6pm job (if I'm lucky)?
And that, my friend, is pretty lifeless too.
And of course, there's this talk about doing what you like/enjoy for a living; well, if you get to do that, great for you! But out of the gazillion living things out there, how many actually get to be that fortunate? A handful? You get to see all those successful stories etc. (which usually come with some failures in the past yada yada yada) everywhere, what about those who failed, like totally? Presevere until they succeed and finally be a success story themselves?

Then what?

Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. I think I lost the initial objective of writing this post and kinda don't know what this is all about already, lol. Eh wait, there might not be any intialy purpose, it's the usual random randomness :D
Sorry if this is like a bit long, I guess I'm just a bit bored in the Uni in the morning.

Negaraku

Saw this some where and thought of sharing it. Cute video :)

It's not the end

Screwing my work does not equate the end of the world, the Earth is still spinning/rotating and life still goes on. Though it was terrible and I felt superbly disappointed with myself (not the usual disappointment, read: this is superbly). This time around, I seriously hope that next time around will be better; but there's only so much of hoping I can do, the doing is what matters -__-

That aside, was really very very really glad to have gone out with some kawans lately. Don't know if I've mentioned this explicitly, but anyhow: the most bestest best thing ever happened to me in tertiary education was/is being able to meet a bunch of most superbly superb humans. Yea, you :)

Though I don't always show it (or maybe I've never shown it), but I am really thankful for the bunch of humans I met; yea, you again :)

I wanted to continue on with more meaningful things like growth and etc. but well, it doesn't feel like it's the right time yet. So I'll probably blog about that some other time :) For now, I'll finish this post by sharing with you two awesome affordable ice-creams and one awesome show for the Psychs:

Two awesome affordable ice-creams
1. Wall's Mango Tango - RM1.50 - any petrol station, supermarkets..
2. Wall's Berry Twist - RM1.50 - any petrol station, supermarkets..
I had the mango one yesterday, it was awesome; had the (straw)berry one today, it was awesome. Between the two, the mango one is awesomer :D

One awesome show for the Psychs
1. Lie to Me - Monday - 8.30~9.30pm - NTV7
An interesting watch though it might be kinda old, but who cares :) Has relevant info about topics like lie detection, study of body language (kinesics, had to go Google for the exact term cause I forgot lol screw me XD); you should watch too even if you're a non-Psych, it's after all pretty interesting :D

That's all.

不知所措

我每天都在过着这样的生活, 你说死不死?

I don't wanna sleep..

It's been a week since my last post, yet my thesis' progress is still.. eh wait, there isn't even a progress. So yea, NO progress for the big project -__-

No, I am not trying to break my own record for last minute assignmenting.. Doing a huge project like thesis research proposal (well, technically it's half a thesis considering there are 1 and 2) is suicidal. In the past few weeks (maybe even months), I kept repeating to myself that I'll start soon, maybe tomorrow.. And tomorrow comes and goes, and there are more tomorrows. I now officially have less than 10 tomorrows for The Thesis 1.

I think I'm taking my major very lightly and in that, I think I'm taking my future very lightly.

And oh, the title is there just because I literally don't wanna sleep. I always wished to have the full 24 hours in a day, as in awake.. without having a need to sleep. Though I don't actually do much nowadays; nonetheless the thought came up back in the days when I was still a religious gamer. Grinding 24 hours was awesome lifeless.
Meh, that aside; now the thought of having 24 hours is purely for me to do nothing, yesh, 24 hours of absolute nothingness.

Eh, I just got an idea, I should start a business in which people actually pay me for doing nothing. Cool eh? Like a Stoning Club or something (totally irrelevant to stones, rocks, pebbles and what-have-you), it's a club where the members stone.. like stare blank.. like do nothing.. stoning~
I can already imagine how my store looks like; it's a store where people come in and pay money and just do nothing..

Ah never mind, I got carried away by my own ridiculousness -__-
I guess I do need to sleep after all, good night!

Still Genie XD

Haiz, how I wish I have a genie who goes: "Sowoneul Malhaebwa~" aka "Tell Me Your Wish~" :D :D :D

Cause you see, I wish for world peace I have sooo many things I want and wish for; just to name a few, like gaining supernatural powers, getting daily allowance of 2k and etc. (etc. includes like another thousand items or so heh :P)
You get the drill la, you know those impossible things; eh wait, nothing is impossible, make that super highly unlikely to happen things instead of impossible!

Genie ah, Genie ah, Where are thou?

Empty

As per title, life has been rather empty. No internship but still got Plants vs Zombies, I am amazed by the amount of time I spent on the game -__-

Like my fellow course mates, I actually have a thesis research proposal to be completed by early August; but as usual, I am doing nothing.. yet. Haiz, I am a bit quite embarrassed to meet my supervisor now; she's very nice and helpful.. She deserves a more hardworking and initiative supervisee -__-

Life is rather meaningless, or maybe it's just an excuse for me to not do anything. I always thought it's cool to have those messages/letters which start with "When you see this, I am no longer in..." It's just cool la heh and no, I am not going to kill myself just because the statement of 'life feels meaningless' comes together with the when-you-see-this statement in a post titled "Empty". Hmm, maybe I should schedule a when-you-see-this message -__-

"When you see this, I am already..."

Heh~ LoL~

-__-

-__-

I didn't even last 2 days. This is not necessarily a bad thing though, and I need to stress that this is not a sad/emo post!

Note to self 1: Next time just don't bother lah! Just be myself: a lazy bum! Don't need to do anything to beautify my pathetic resume; it is too pathetic for any effective remedy already -__-

Note to self 2: Next time must refrain from shopping even during sales! Only wait for J-Card Member Day; it is the only day worth shopping albeit the crazy crowd! So yea -__-

Finally can rest in peace -__-

It's a Secret

Life's Good, go figure :P

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On the other hand, there is this and that to be done.
Haiz, like got a lot of things to do and also like got nothing to do.. or it's just me having plenty tasks to be completed and yet, not doing anyone of them!

I seriously don't know what I've been doing since my final finals paper, the only think I could think of now is spending time wasting time. Yesh, that's right! I spent my time wasting time, OMG x 3.

That aside, I think I am a very very fortunate person. I get to sing k, eat fast food, eat not-too-cheap desserts, watch TV, use/own a computer, go to Uni, meet awesome friends, experience awesome times with friends, have my 5 senses intact.. and the list goes on; my point is yea, fortunate a person I am.

That's about it, I actually thought of more things.. but can't seem to remember them. For now, this mundanely random and abruptly ended post will do; and hope I survive next week: thesis defense and 1st taste of working world (+ the cramming in KTM station in the morning and evening and maybe night, OMG x 3).

Fetchers

Thank you to those who have fetched me home before. I know to most, this might not be a problem at all, but it is the biggest concern I have when I go out with friends.
It is you (fetchers sekalian) that I was able to be present and not miss any precious moments with fellow friends. As cliche as it might sound, you know who you are lol (cause I've been fetched home so many times by so many of you that I lost track -__-).
Take the title as a tribute to you! Thanks for not abandoning me and viewing me as a burden :D

Like a friend said, sometimes it is really just that easy to be nice to people. No ulterior motives, no terms and conditions. And I personally also believe that it's easier to be nice than nasty (though I still have to agree that in certain situations, we are somehow conditioned to be not-nice XD); so yea, it's good to be nice to people once in a while as often as possible :P

Exams are over and there goes the 2nd semester of Year 3. Coming up are thesis presentation, THESIS, and internship. Haiz, humans complain when they have things to do, and they complain when there's nothing to do.. And I am not complaining yet, let's just say I am not amused.

Where now?

I just realized that people of my age are at no where, hence the title.

What I'm trying to say here is we are not too old.. and we are not too young. For instance, we are actually still young enough to be a superstar, supermodel and whatever supers we have that require one to start young and fresh. At the same time, we are actually already old enough to make our own babies and/or start our own family/business.

You know, it just sort of kept me thinking.. What am I now? Where am I now? What am I to be? What can I become?
And you know, we humans are capable of doing many great things. Many great things.

What would I be doing if I'm not doing Psychology? What to do after this? And then WHAT? IS LIFE JUST LIKE THAT? What more is there?
Does a person who travels all around the world experiences life more than a person who stays home and watches TV all day? Why are we living life?! Why is there even a WE in the first place?!

Aww man, I don't know why am I thinking all these at this time lol. I am not emo'ing, neither am I stressed out by the final exams and thesis.. I just have this thought of "so what" and "then what"; you know like, so what if I am on the moon now, then what? So what if I earn a 5-digit salary now, then what? You know la, the so what and then what attitude -__-

So what? Then what?

Kempasians

The reunion dinner with fellow ex-students of 5 Kempas was interestingly nice. It was really nice to see so many of them again; I would say most of them didn't change much appearance wise and apparently, most commented that I've changed a lot. And I am inclined to think that it's a good change :)

I just realized that why I always appear reserved and shutmyself, cause I am afraid that when people get too close, they might find that I am quite empty. Yea, empty.. -__- I am quite boring and uninteresting in general; this was apparent during the get-together when everyone was sharing and I found myself feeling quite kosong and got not much to share.. Not to mention that I had quite a negative mentality when looking back at my secondary school life. Haiz, scrap that!!!

And oh, never underestimate the power of peer pressure! Especially pressure from peers whom you have not met for a very long time XD Cause I surrendered to that pressure that day and did many silly things lol I should seriously learn to laugh at myself!!

*laughing at myself mode*
hahahahaha hahahaha hahahahaha hahahahaha hahahahahahaaaa
*end of laughing at myself mode*

OMG, after those laughters I still cannot get over the silly acts. Haiz, I just kinda felt that it's not common to get that bunch of people together.. a bit of silly acts won't kill me O_O
Looking back at it now, it feels like it does can kill me -__-

Come to think of it.. I think one day it'll be hard to get the Uni people together too!! T_T Fellow organizer masterminds, please do something when that day comes.. not everyone has the ability to bring everyone together ok. And the ones doing it so far have done great, so yea stay great... :D

Kesimpulannya, video of SNSD's Tell Me performance from years ago; orginal singer was Wonder Girls but I personally like SNSD's better:



p/s: that was totally random lol. Note to self: gotta stop watching these vids and start doing revision and thesis OMG OMG. And OMG.

Tell Me Your Wish

Hehe :)

p/s: I am t-e-r-r-i-b-l-e cause I see-money-eye-open!

p/s 2: I always like yum cha sessions with kawans!

Today, I got caught off-guard by the internship person. Haiz.. +_+
I actually set the alarm to wake up earlier as I was expecting them to call for the phone interview, but I couldn't wake up and got woken up by a call from the internship site interviewer!!

O_O

So yea, I was very unprepared..
When asked to describe myself, I described myself using only 2 traits in less than 10 words.. followed by a moment of silence from the interviewer and "Hah, that's all?"; I then proceeded to add on another 5 words or so.. and the response was "Ohhh, owhkay..."
I was wondering if it's actually better to not add the 5 words -_-
I now know that I am boring, uninteresting, shallow, ignorant, pretentious.. oh have I mentioned that I'm uninteresting? XD
Oh wait, next time I can just use this sentence when I am asked to describe myself! I lost count of the moments of silence and awkwardness during the phone interview T_T

The point is, I really got shocked when I was asked to describe myself.. cause my mind turned blank! I really don't know what kind of person am I~ It was that bad...
And and.. I don't think I can function effectively in the working world; I really don't know how to interact with people and communicate/express my thoughts.. OMG, let's just hope that it's not too late to discover these things XD

Either way, I got the internship opportunity. I am guessing it was due to the low application amount from our students; and they are pretty in need of humans I think..

Gam-ba-teh ne!!

I always appreciate every sing k session :) It's just really nice to get to sing k once in a while with fellow kawans.
And now that I have finally applied Neway's membership card, I can go alone during lunch hour (11 to 1) for RM5 with no extra charges! Muahahahaha!! *evil laughter seizes*

That aside, I just realized that I like to be surrounded by voices/sounds of friends, they make me feel safe :D It's like knowing there are people there.. Which is why even though sometimes not everyone can pay attention to everyone in a big group of friends, I still like to just be there.. listening to everyone's conversation silently or emo'ly.

random:
I was at this staring competition the other day and I got out-stared! I was waiting for my transport (my mom lol) and as usual, I was staring doing naturalistic observation on passerby; then usually people don't look back, even if they do.. they don't like STARE. So yea and that day I got stared at lol @_@
Conclusion is, next time don't stare at random passerby hehe. And I realized a thing, I actually did not have the confidence to stare back. I used to be able to just stare and stare though.. hmm, I wonder what happened? Haiz.
If given the chance again, will I stare back? Probably not, wanna kena whack meh?!
/end of random

random no.2 of the day:
Thank goodness for rajin workers! If not for the hardworking IT technical staff-person, I would be dead bored every morning... because the IT technical staff-person holds the key to the computer lab and the computer lab houses the computer and the computer is my source of entertainment in the morning before class. The designated opening time for the com lab is 9am and this IT person will usually reach at about 8.30am or so; so yea, bravo for rajin workers hehe.
/end of random no.2 of the day

Stumbled upon the Enneagram test thinge in a friend's blog, and I Google'd it to try it out.. The results revealed that I am a One (highest score) and a Five (second highest).

Following are the description taken from the website:

The Perfectionist (the One)

Perfectionists are realistic, conscientious, and principled. They strive to live up to their high ideals.

How to Get Along with Me

• Take your share of the responsibility so I don't end up with all the work.
• Acknowledge my achievements.
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• I'm hard on myself. Reassure me that I'm fine the way I am.
• Tell me that you value my advice.
• Be fair and considerate, as I am.
• Apologize if you have been unthoughtful. It will help me to forgive.
• Gently encourage me to lighten up and to laugh at myself when I get uptight, but hear my worries first.

What I Like About Being a One

• being self-disciplined and able to accomplish a great deal
• working hard to make the world a better place
• having high standards and ethics; not compromising myself
• being reasonable, responsible, and dedicated in everything I do
• being able to put facts together, coming to good understandings, and figuring out wise solutions
• being the best I can be and bringing out the best in other people

What's Hard About Being a One

• being disappointed with myself or others when my expectations are not met
• feeling burdened by too much responsibility
• thinking that what I do is never good enough
• not being appreciated for what I do for people
• being upset because others aren't trying as hard as I am
• obsessing about what I did or what I should do
• being tense, anxious, and taking things too seriously

Ones as Children Often

• criticize themselves in anticipation of criticism from others
• refrain from doing things that they think might not come out perfect
• focus on living up to the expectations of their parents and teachers
• are very responsible; may assume the role of parent
• hold back negative emotions ("good children aren't angry")

Ones as Parents

• teach their children responsibility and strong moral values
• are consistent and fair
• discipline firmly

The Observer (the Five)

Observers have a need for knowledge and are introverted, curious, analytical, and insightful.

How to Get Along with Me

• Be independent, not clingy.
• Speak in a straightforward and brief manner.
• I need time alone to process my feelings and thoughts.
• Remember that If I seem aloof, distant, or arrogant, it may be that I am feeling uncomfortable.
• Make me feel welcome, but not too intensely, or I might doubt your sincerity.
• If I become irritated when I have to repeat things, it may be because it was such an effort to get my thoughts out in the first place.
• don't come on like a bulldozer.
• Help me to avoid my pet peeves: big parties, other people's loud music, overdone emotions, and intrusions on my privacy.

What I Like About Being a Five

• standing back and viewing life objectively
• coming to a thorough understanding; perceiving causes and effects
• my sense of integrity: doing what I think is right and not being influenced by social pressure
• not being caught up in material possessions and status
• being calm in a crisis

What's Hard About Being a Five

• being slow to put my knowledge and insights out in the world
• feeling bad when I act defensive or like a know-it-all
• being pressured to be with people when I don't want to be
• watching others with better social skills, but less intelligence or technical skill, do better professionally

Fives as Children Often

• spend a lot of time alone reading, making collections, and so on
• have a few special friends rather than many
• are very bright and curious and do well in school
• have independent minds and often question their parents and teachers
• watch events from a detached point of view, gathering information
• assume a poker face in order not to look afraid
• are sensitive; avoid interpersonal conflict
• feel intruded upon and controlled and/or ignored and neglected

Fives as Parents

• are often kind, perceptive, and devoted
• are sometimes authoritarian and demanding
• may expect more intellectual achievement than is developmentally appropriate
• may be intolerant of their children expressing strong emotions

Interesting eh? Credits to Bagen & Wagele (1994) for all the descriptions; and of course, the website which I've obtained all these from: 9types.com. You can find more useful information regarding The Enneagram via 9types.com.

You can attempt the test here: *click*
I am not sure how established, accurate, valid or reliable is the test, I just stumbled upon it, then went Google'd it and did it only :P Just sharing it because it's interesting hehe :)

Putting yourself in someone else's shoes, in other words, to be empathetic towards that someone else.

This is never an easy task, why?

You see, taking it literally, it is not easy to have matching feet size; and even if you do have a matching feet size, the construction of the shoes might not suit you (e.g. narrow shoe toe, not enough arch support).
Meaning to say that, when you put yourself in someone else's shoes, you won't be able to go through what the person has gone through... You know, like the chewing gum he stepped on, the uneven floor he tripped over, the slippery hallway he.. well slipped :)

In a related note, that is also why people always seem to downplay other people's problems; because it is just so difficult to understand other people's problems! Me losing my dog (this is random lol) is different from you losing your dog even though we both lost our dogs. To illustrate, me getting poked by a needle is different from you getting poked by the same needle with the same intensity albeit both of us were indeed poked!

So yea, kesimpulannya, don't simply wear people's shoes la, okay?! :P

p/s: this post has no whatsoever significant meaning etc. it is as random as me wanting to maintain 76.2 :)

Results = screwed below the expected/acceptable norm for me

Thesis = screwed'ing *screams*

Life = still goes on

明天会更好.. 若到了最好的那天后, 还会有更好的明天吗?

A friend once commented that I actually care even though I appear as though I don't care. Confusing? Read it few times to get the idea :P
I question this comment though, do I really care about people (friends, family, humans)? Cause it appears to me that I am pretty selfish most times.

I do agree with another statement she made though, that I tend to shut away from people.. This is something that I witnessed happening on myself -__- I tend not to share things with people, may it be good or bad stuff, happy or sad things.

I also have the tendency to 'open up' at the wrong times which in turn, leads to me 'shutting away' more. Having said that, life still goes on.. So yea.

What are all these craps about? Just for the heck of it, since I don't wanna abandon this virtual space just yet :)

I am fragile. Very fragile.

I suck. Just didn't know I suck THAT much.

A trace back to my older posts revealed that there is an obvious trend around the same time of the year. To be exact, the exam and assignment grinding times..

Like how I always complained that I don't study, given the time I would have done better preparations etc. Yet after all these years (now Year 3), I am still like this.. Not preparing enough for exams; then regret. Haiz T_T

So my conclusion is, this thinge is IN ME. You know, much like eye colour. I know I know, they have these colourful powerless contact lenses nowadays; but deep down, if your eyes are brown, they are still brown!
Ok, maybe bad example, but understandable lah~

And the most frustrating thing isn't about not studying; but more like studied -> then screwed up. Meaning for the tiny wee bit that I studied, I still can somehow get it wrong -__- Super frustrating. Like today's paper, man, looking back I got like so many errors.. Those like basic shouldn't get wrong one also can get wrong. Wtf.

On a random note, I think I am very selfish and self-centered. Noticed the many 'I' sentences I have in my posts? Lol. It's always I this or I that la.. It's like I couldn't be bothered by people, now I don't even know if I care enough of things and/or people around me -__-
See, the many 'I's -_-

Aiyoyo.. Let's just say I wouldn't be surprised if I end up being alone in the future. Cause in a way, I really do think that I just don't care enough..

p/s: that said, Tuesday is a good day.. Tonight on 8TV we have Ugly Betty and Desperate Housewives. I mean how can people not watch those right? =P No?

McDonald's is having this Value Lunch promotion thinge on weekdays, from 12 noon to 3 pm; sets available are of those such as Double Cheeseburger, Fillet-O-Fish and McChicken; each set cost approximately Rm6.25 after tax..

I'm not like promoting McDonald's or anything, it's just that I thought it's indeed a value lunch. Say, if you share it with another friend, each of you pay only RM3+. And that's for half a burger, more than a handful of fries and a bottom-less soft drink :P

-_- I'm getting really long-winded.. the main point I brought this point up was actually about my Value Lunch experience today.
I reached McD's at around 11.58'ish and there were actually people or rather crowd queuing in front of the counters waiting for 12 noon lol. I find this to be particularly cute or interesting :D Then once the clock struck 12, the employee sounded a "HONK" and the whole drama began...
In my whole half an hour there, the queue never stops weh!!!

In another note, I almost forgot that next week is The Midterm Week..
Like OMG O_O Like SOOO fast O_O I even have this textbook I bought weeks ago still wrapped in plastic!! That goes to show how hardworking and motivated I am :P
And to think that I've been spending time recently by spending time!! Most of the time was spent in front of the computer, not for academic purposes, but to search extensively about the things I wanna buy (e.g. wallet, earphones, MP3 player, phone, etc.). If I work as hard for my studies, I would have gotten those flying colours and whatnots :P

Having said that, I've come to a conclusion that I probably should put some purchases on hold; like a new cellphone. I had a spare phone spared by my bro, it even has colours ler :P
So yea, to those who've asked, I can still be contacted!

Anyway, to all BPsych'ians, study is study hor, don't overstress yourselves!!! Take some rest from time to time!!
To everyone, Happy Valentine's Day *hearts* ^v^

I don't know what's with today, maybe the star alignment isn't favorable for me -_-

Up till like 30 minutes ago, I still had my K750i in hand, listening to MP3 somemore..

Then now.. now.. the phone is completely crushed!!

I dropped my phone in the apartment's parking lot and it got ran over!!!

T_T 哭无目屎 (what we called cry until no tear in Hokkien!!!)

Long story short:
- wanted to set alarm in phone so I can catch a nap before 7pm show
- couldn't find phone, panic! tried calling, masuk'ed voice mail
- ask bro go find; moments later, bro backed with K.O.'ed phone
- me screams, screams and screams *screams* probably more like ARGHHH!!

Haiz.. Haiz.. HHAAAIIIZZZ!!!!

I know a new phone is good and nice and all that.. but but.. I got so many things on my to-buy-list liao now handphone somemore kena ran over pulak~

*breath in* *breath out* *pads on shoulder* wtf?!

At least the SIM card and MSPD are not damaged. Also thank goodness that it didn't suffer the same faith as my shoes la (like kena stolen -_-)

Or maybe I unconsciously ter-drop my phone on the ground; then again unconsciously fake fake didn't notice my phone dropped???????

Actually no lor!! I still like the phone very much lor T_T
Judging from the way I keep stuff, the K750i can last for at least another year or two one lor!! It's been with me for 33 months already!! Meaning I don't really wanna buy a new phone now despite somewhat wanting a new piece of gadget XD

Crap!! whywhywhywhydoesthishappenedtome
bethankfulthatthesimcardissavedla

bethankfulbethankfulbethankful

*represses*

Okok.. I think I'm okay now..

p/s: byebye to the SMS'es and stuff saved in the phone T_T byebye

I predict 2009 will be a very fast-paced and tiring year.
Time zipped through just like that with a snap of the finger! *snap* and voila~ January gone!

2009 hasn't been spectacular with the exception of Federal Territory Day *wink* :P Like getting sick in the 1st week of 3rd Year, getting sick in CNY and various random lain-lain things.
What more with the ever-piling assignments and exams, which worsen the condition twofold at least!
You see, I whine a lot and work a little. So generally, I whine whine whine then work, whine x3 and work x1; probably lesser :P

Speaking of unproductiveness, I spent the entire Saturday spending time; like nothing done! I didn't even watch much TV, neither did I indulge myself in gaming (haven't done this since the new semester!). So memang literally spent time by spending time!
Not to mention that these couple of weeks are supposed to be the really really busy time for us Psych people, with Midterms hanging around the corner and various assignments piling.

I fail big time lar! Allow me to apologize to my fellow group members in advance XD
To add salt, pepper and vinegar to the wound of failure, the announcement of Thesis topic + supervisor reminded me that I AM actually a 3rd Year student wtf -_-
Like suddenly the great Boulder of 3rd-Year just fall onto me and *BAM* omg omg cannot brr..ee..ath..

Haiz, I believe many felt that way too.. Like the thought just struck us, "Wow, we're actually 3rd year now.. we're something man!" and we actually survived so long!!!
Then the all where-do-i-go-after-this questions popped up. For many of us (Psych majors), we don't really have a clear career path. Honestly speaking, I don't see how I can apply what I've learnt these years; in comparison to those pretty straight forward courses like Accounting, Finance, etc.

Regardless of ALL the worries, life still goes on, time still ticks.
So yea, for me, I'll just take one step at a time; and since I'm fear of heights, I won't climb too high :P

This Could be Love

Soon you'll understand why the title is the title, now just let me rant a bit hehe :P

I have come to the conclusion that I'm the worst driver among the Earthlings I know, Venus inhabitants included~

Driving is one of the most recurring themes in entries posted here because yours truly is truly a terrible driver!! Okok, supposedly the more I drive the lesser I fear right; people have been telling me that since forever!
Yet I still drive retardedly slow or dangerously slow or 'accidentally' accelerating when turning or stepping the accelerator when I'm supposed to break~

On the other note, I think I've decided to use the gift Ang Pow to buy myself a Braun Büffel wallet. It's not like a branded brand per se, but it does not fall in the 'very affordable' range as well lol.
I'm clueless about the pronunciation though.. Like Brond? Brawn? Brine? Buffle? Buff-fell? Booffle? Boof-fell? -__-
Whatever la~
This will be a long term investmet, I don't see myself changing wallet like very often O_O

I opted not to get the Esprit sling bag because personally, I think it might be a bit overpriced. Furthermore, my days as a Uni student are not long *fingers crossed*
And it's probably not too practical next time to carry a sling bag around? Oh wait, that depends on my occupation too! Nvm nvm, wallet more practical wallet more practical *tells self*

Here's a tag tagged by The Organizer mentioned in previous post, though if I'm not mistaken I've done something similar in the past; but of course have to give face to The Organizer la ^-^
Somemore can see the 千千静听 player 醒目 or not lol~

a. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc on shuffle.
b. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
c. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN, NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
d. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
e. Put this on your blog.

1. If someone says, "Is this okay?"
王菲 - 但愿人长久
(I guess this roughly means "It's okay", life has its ups and downs and unpredictable. Just make do with it)

2. How would you describe yourself?
Ayumi Hamasaki - Secret
(Lol, means I'm full of secrets?! Woot, mystery-nya :D)

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?
戴佩妮 - 什么都舍得
(One who gives all to me? Muahahahaha. The title literally means 'willing to give up anything')

4. How do you feel today?
S.H.E - 长相思
(I'm thinking/missing someone like a lot?? Hmm, I don't know, you think? :P)

5. What is your life’s purpose?
Rie Fu - Anata ga Koko ni iru Riyuu [The Reason Why You Are Here Is..]
(OMG!! It's like bull's eye, double question -_- It's a Jap song, so I don't really know the meaning; but I presume it's more to those love love romance stuff lar)

6. What is your motto?
Tank - 专属天使
(Wahh!! Real or not, got so cheh (邪) or not? Be a specialized or ONE and only angel to a special someone? Woot~)

7. What do your friends think of you?
Twins - 我很想爱他
(Er, this I don't know.. I'm loved by all me friends? Hehe :)) <- this is not double-chin smiley, it's a closed bracket!

8. What do you think of your parents?
Spice Girls - Mama
(Wahh!! Another cheh one, I think to a certain extent I do think less of my father -_-)

9. What do you think about very often?
Alicia Keys - Karma
(I'm telling you, my music player is super geng! I think about karma like all the time!! What comes around goes around, really..!)

10. What is 2+2?
王心凌 - 明天见
(See you tomorrow? WTF?)

11. What do you think of your best friend?
S.H.E - 触电
(O_O Got spark between me and mah best friend? Come, another WTF face O_o?!)

12. What do you think of the person you like?
My Chemical Romance - I Don't Love You
(I'm reaching speechless liao... The person I like.. and er I don't love you? Means like neutralized?)

13. What is your life?
同恩 - 不准哭
(To never ever cry? But I don't keep tears one wor, want cry then cry lar!!)

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?
杨宗纬 - 洋葱
(ONION?! Of all things and I wanna be a grown onion?!! I'll make people tear I think lol T_T)

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
RYTHEM - Houki Kumo [Comet Cloud!]
(I fly to the clouds?! Wow, that must be some great person heh~)

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?
孙燕姿 - 爱情证书
(Fuiyoh!! Like love cert or vows on my wedding day? The song is a bit sad one though...)

17. What will they play at your funeral?
Sean Kingston - Beautiful Girls
(I die and my fellow attendees only think about beautiful girls?! What lar!!)

18. What is your hobby/interest?
Ashless Simpson - Pieces of Me
(I have pieces? Me is puzzle? -.-?)

19. What is your biggest fear?
林宇中 - 干物女
(LOL! I'm afraid of female otaku? Hmm, not otaku per se, but similar enough I guess? IDK)

20. What is your biggest secret?
Jason Mraz - I'm Yours
(I am secretly belonged to someone?! Secret? Another IDK -_-)

21. What do you think of your friends?
周惠 - 体温
(They are very warm? With their body temperature and whatnot lol..)

22. What will you post this as?
王力宏 - This Could be Love
(Hehe, hehe, hehhehheh)

23. What song would you play during your first time having sex?
周杰伦 - 青花瓷
(Like why this song? Literally those antique blue and white porcelain... O.O)

p/s: I did not cheat lol, I guess after all, my music player is quite 'seng mook' one ^o^

There you go~

This is a Thank You Post dedicated to whomever it may concern :P

In chronological order,

Thank you fellow DJ gang who 'kinda' celebrated my Birthday on 1st of February!
'Kinda' because it was WC's open house and I just tumpang the so called birthday celebration there. Thanks a lot for the 8-slice-cheesecake, it was a brilliant idea ^-^ Brilliant because an entire piece of cheesecake would have been too menjelak'ing~

Thank you fellow Uni gang for today's celebration albeit being a belated one!
Firstly, must thank the planner KMYee for making everything happened. Then, certainly, the participants attendees la~ It wouldn't be splendidly great without your presences! Thank you for the meal and the Ang Pow also, so old style la hehe :) Somemore I'm supposed to be the 'grown up' one el-o-el.

In a related note, I am of course very thankful for the handshakes, birthday songs, calls, SMSes, cards, virtual birthday greetings and wishes! And oh oh, not forgetting the presents *grins*

I know it's The 21st, but I don't feel particularly special XD Nonetheless, I'm elated with the celebrations and wishings ^___^

And here's a promise to myself that I'll try to spend the gift Ang Pow and the normal Ang Pow wisely! I'm just too greedy lar -_-

Once again, vaguely, THANK YOU!!!

*smiles and laughs happily to self*

Very random thoughts.

Is it really difficult to do what you want and say what you want to say?

Back then, that must took lots of courage.
I don't think I'll ever be able to gather the courage to do that. I'm a chicken after all, not literally of course XD
My chickeness and chickenity are apparent even when I'm crossing the roads :P

Why was I avoiding anyway?
Weird thought!

When asked what can be done with a Psych degree, is the answer Psychologist?
Things are often not that simplistic in real life, it's not even a guarantee that an Accounting degree will yield an Accountant for sure.
Personal thought, if things and people are categorized that easily; the world would be a boring place! Like seriously!
So yea, next time a busybody aunty or uncle (or any human for that matter) ask you this question; just reply them that you'll be a Mind Reader to screw their minds or threaten to screw their sons' or daughters' minds if they ask again lol :P

Recession or not, I have tonnes of things to buy. Selfish I know. But isn't life too short to be bothered by minor stuff like recession? And btw, I have no idea how does this recession thinge works swt.

Shallow much? Yesh. Aiya, shallow also human, stupid also human ar!
For all we know, this WORLD could be a game some random kid in some random realm of a random universe is playing; much like how we play Maple Story or Ragnarok Online.
Or for all we know, we all could be NON-EXISTENT!

El-o-El

Better go watch some cartoon now before I get too random and start bull-crapping randomly!

p/s: These paragraphs are not meant to flow after each other, they are after all, randomly random~

Please do not try McDonald's Orange Dream McFlurry!!!

It tasted like rotten mandarin orange! I think they really just take some rotten oranges, blend them to juices, and mix the juice with some ice cream; then voila! a new McFlurry to con people's money T_T

I like to eat desserts; cakes la, ice creams la, pies la, tarts la, etc. la and whatnot.
So can you imagine that I actually couldn't finish eating an ICE CREAM?! Yes, the Orange Dream (what a name?!) was that terrible -_-

Next time better stay with the traditional Oreo one!

The leftover ice cream! Looks like baby poop right? Not any baby poop, it's the poop of a sick baby!

Apologies for the bad quality pic. But I assure you its resemblance to baby poop in real life is shocking indeed. And I actually ate about half of the McFlurry before giving up! Goodness O_O

Woot! <- my favorite catch phrase today lol.

Onitsuka Tiger's Tai Chi was unexpectedly gorgeous in real life. The pictures on the web do not do them justice!
They felt really soft too (on the outside), probably test-worn by many people that's why soften liao.

Cape No. 7 was an enjoyable watch too. Heard that the movie was raved by Taiwanese, it was indeed a worthwhile investment of RM7.
However, there was a heavy use of 台语 or Hokkien (they are essentially different language if I'm not mistaken, but have many similar sounds in most contexts). So it would be a great plus if you understood Hokkien; if not, you'll have to resort to them subtitles ^-^

On a side note, I think I actually missed going Uni a bit.. just a tiny weeny bit =P
It is nice to go out sometimes and see humans, but not too much la! Too much of exposure to humans might be harmful to an introvert like me!!!

As for the Thai song in the previous post, I kinda set it to auto-play, so if you're annoyed by it just hit the 'pause' button which looks somewhat like a vertical =
I do agree that the Thai language can sound somewhat 'interesting' with the sounds of 'mais', 'pais', 'tais' lol!Fear not, that post will be bumped into 2nd page in about 3 more posts since I only set 4 entries to a page.

Hah, that's about it. Hope I won't be drowned by the mountains and seas of Uni work!

Happy happy'ing~

รักฉันเรียกว่าเธอ - KAMIKAZE
Woot, a Thai song :)
My my, it was really satisfying to be able to find and youknowwhat this song. I heard it elsewhere and thought it has a nice tune to it despite (again) knowing nuts about Thai -_-
Honestly, I don't know what's the lyrics about but one thing I do know is the title: Calling for Love, by Kamikaze.

I have been meaning to blog about "growth" but got sick and couldn't be bothered much. Speaking about getting sick, if I'm not mistaken, this is the first time in the history of my tertiary education that I take a 2 days leave.
Lol, felt really good slacking resting at home doing nothing (isn't this something I do ALL the time?!)
That marked a rather not-so-good start for the year. Let's just hope 2009 will be a pleasant year, even with the crisis, the thesis, and er.. stuff'sis <- this is to follow the sis sound just in case you're wondering~

As for the aforementioned "growth", just wanna point out that it is something I've witnessed in people around me. I mean, it is only natural for people to grow right? Whether physically or mentally, or whatever'ly (<- again, to follow the ly sound lol~) you can think off :P
There is no positive or negative connotation to "growth", I mean if you grow then you grow la. For instance, regardless of whether you grew to think more maturely or to think more childishly over the year; still growth lar!

The reason I brought that up is because I'm aging and old people think about stuff like that. I'm kinda concern about what have I grown into now, and what am I turning into? Someone different from 20 years ago (woot, I can actually say TWENTY YEARS AGO now)? Very random things to be worried about lol.
Worry about the meaning of life la, constantly questioning our roles in the world, etc. etc. You know la, those stuff about existence la, significance la, future la.. whatnot we have!

What lies ahead in the future?

Haiz, better stop here, I'm getting a bit lost in my own thoughts lol. For now, let's just face what's directly in front, damnyoutertiaryeducationwhichihavenoideawhereisitbringingme~

Happy happy'ing~

Oh crap! It's 2009 already?!

I am not prepared for Year 3 yet!
The passed couple of weeks was barely enough rest and relaxation -_-

Sigh.
Anyways, this coming semester's timetable is terrigible. I mean like TWO days of 3pm to 6pm classes does not sound good to me. If it's a whole day class I wouldn't mind, but just randomly starts at 3pm one. Not having transport means I'll have to be in Uni at 8am; then have my breakfast, brunch, lunch, teatime snack; THEN baru go to class O_O

Oh wait. Hooray! Now I can PRE-read for the classes and do revision during those times, how splendid right? /endofsarcasm

Nvm, that can't be changed.

By the way, 2008's last day was well spent. Though there was no fireworks and no countdown (yes, we have totally forgotten when the clock strikes 12); it was certainly nice to spend it quietly with some friends in a very comfortable mansion house :D

And oh, since that day (the 31st) was literally the end of the year, I went to this shoes shop with my mom; they were having like 50% 60% 70% year end sales. Though the discounts were splendid, the choices were limited, so were the sizes for shoes XD
Nonetheless, I still managed to grab some shoes la hehe. 3 pairs to be exact! But those are the really basic ones la, they were going for real cheap too!
Basic or not basic, fancy or not fancy, I am still pleasantly delighted muahahahaha!

Those more expensive purchases like Lacoste or Onitsuka Tiger can wait until I open my first money-printing factory in the future heh~

2008 gone case. 2009 baru sampai.
New sem, Year 3. CNY's in about 3 weeks time too!
Before you know it, it's 2010 already haha! Okok, that's a bit kua cheong!

Though it's a bit late, Happy New Year! May 2009 be a great year for you. One that's filled with plenty of joy, laughters, hopes, wishes, successes, opportunies and you know la, all the good stuff :D

Happy happy'ing~

p/s: for some odd reasons, I find this post a bit lala'ish.. I don't know why. I think I'm just lala in nature la *winkwink* *peace*